Am I doing enough?
The argument in my head goes like this:
1. I look at all the suffering in the world and feel sad. I wonder why God doesn’t do more to stop it. Then I wonder if He’s looking at us and saying, “I gave you the tools (like money and time) to help, now use them!”
2. I don’t want to have no spare time and no money.
I do already give away a certain amount of my money, and up until my new job started I volunteered my time in youth ministry. But now I’ve got the job, writing commitments, and I just don’t want another night out of the house.
But is that selfish? Should I do more? Am I letting someone down?
The more I think about it, the more I feel like I can’t find the right answer because I’m asking the wrong question.
At the moment, my thought pattern seems to be guilt and obligation-based. I only have one idea of how to turn that around. (If anyone else has others, please share them!)
My one idea is that, instead of asking specific questions like, “Should I volunteer at XYZ organisation?”, I should ask God, “Please align my heart and life with You”.
I figure that if I’m more like God, and if I’m where He wants me to be, then I’ll want to do the right thing and be confident in what I’m doing.
But will God deliver on a request like that? Or is it up to me to determine where the line of selfishness is and keep away from it?
I read Matthew 7:7-8 this morning.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8 NIV
And last week, Dad reminded me of Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
The message I get out of that is; if I search with God, something’s going to work out. And if I trust God, I’ll go the way He wants me to.
I know this isn’t an excuse for me to just keep ‘seeking God’ and use that as an excuse to not actually do anything. James 2 makes it pretty clear God thinks that’s a stupid idea.
But it’s also not up to me to figure everything out. God’s promised to guide me through this. We’ll work it out together.
I need to keep asking, searching, putting Him before myself, and ask for help to make sure my mind doesn’t close off to His unexpected answers. I also need help to keep my eyes open for opportunities and jump on them.
But I think He’ll be happy to help me out with that. 🙂
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